As I sit here in my house drinking my scotch and smoke my cigar while on this computer. I look and see your on....well you know what this means you probably on talking to him, or her and not even giving a damn about me, so I guess I will let you know now that I am fine, and have not given up on you or us. I regret the decision I made in October I just wish you could see now more than ever. I want my great friend back and the person I cared about so much back in my life.You my think you can forget well I will never forget, and I can not say it will never be the same, but I will try even if I am the last guy on the face of the earth. I will try and try until I am in the ground with 6 feet of dirt surrounding me, and you know what I will still wait up in heaven for you until you get their. I love you and no one even "Mike" can not take it from me. Why do I even type this, is like you don't care about me so why did I do this because I feel better about myself.